the video games and more
I watched a video about what long term effects of videogames to do your brain. I do not know if mine is ruined from years of gaming. That, I would be less anxious and depressed without them, or if I am addicted. I feel lost without them. I can't be a novelist, and schooling won't replace it( if I could afford it). Maybe feeling like I won't be able to learn in a true acdemic setting, and not just some educational webpage is from the video games. I don't know. I also really don't think I can sit with my negative thoughts and deal with them by starring at a wall.. wall, o r if I just took a walk and breath anything will get better. Maybe the games are why I don't want to go whale watching, or to the beach. Or have been disinterested in things, that the games are why I am depressed. Or why partying doesn't sound fun. Depending on what that intales. Plus I am to old to " party". And my life over these 20 years is so removed that I can't bond wit