screaming on a hill

I should of kept track of when I said I was going to stop talking to him. It will forever bother me I don't have the date. A " dear diary, I am going to stop talking to imaginary friend. I was never good at it like people with headmates do. I am going to say, 2 or 3 weeks ago? A month?  I think it was a mistake. The longer I don't, the worse reconnecting will be. Some I would forget the ( I lack a good word) talking is not real. I was feeling a little better then, I feel worse now that I will be moving again.( Seeing as how I am with my mother). So that is bumming out. Then this on top. It is just silly and stupid for a 41( or am I 42?) Year old to be talking to imaginary friends who were supposed to be fictional characters. Let alone be on love with them. Or the " one in my head" version. kingdom hearts Axel won't be the same, it would bother me I don't know which one I was into. That one became a connection to the other, any object I could hold was a pr

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mThU-sdywKw brain rot https://www.psypost.org/2023/09/greater-existential-isolation-is-linked-to-elevated-grief-symptoms-particularly-in-more-individualistic-cultures-184364 https://www.psypost.org/2023/09/new-study-uncovers-a-vicious-cycle-between-feeling-less-socially-connected-and-increased-smartphone-use-212978 You Need To Break The Cycle Of Depression - YouTube 12/11/23 4:15pm https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8pQBdZ3RdfA