i am powerless

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mThU-sdywKw


brain rot


https://www.psypost.org/2023/09/greater-existential-isolation-is-linked-to-elevated-grief-symptoms-particularly-in-more-individualistic-cultures-184364


https://www.psypost.org/2023/09/new-study-uncovers-a-vicious-cycle-between-feeling-less-socially-connected-and-increased-smartphone-use-212978


You Need To Break The Cycle Of Depression - YouTube


12/11/23 4:15pm https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8pQBdZ3RdfA

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