meh twitch sad

 i don't feel like thinking more and more. i don't know if xanje destroy my brain. or im giving up

but i still feel like i neeed another blogsite. and and i don't have a new name. it

s bothering me i don't recall every name i ever used. even changing the name so many times from mirc. but going back to the past is bad.

and i can't live without this kind of putting every thought on line.


i got rid of axel in my head, and since july or august have been having  myclonic jerks multiple times everytnight. 3 in the ear, a min appart, then maybe 5 min appart i feel a jump scare starte, then maybe a 7 min a muscle twitch and sometimes it mixes up but this is repete many times every time. and i'ts so hard and i tried to be calm and not think one night, and this happend. or maybe respidone damage? my surgery removing the tissue expander and partacath.


and i have these insurance things to do, and i dont udnertsand.

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